Easter

We had a nice Easter lunch.  I was so very pleased to see you enjoying yourself. 

Making you happy always makes me happy.

I cannot wait to get away with you tomorrow.  Be alone with you.  See how you are when you are just you with me.

Sometimes we seem from so totally different worlds.  And it is hard for me to understand you.  But I really try.  I really really do.

Will tomorrow be the start of something different?  I wonder..... I wonder.....

Trip

We are going away for a few days.  Just you and I alone.

However, we are not seeing eye to eye on how we will use the first night when we are away.  You are insisting that you stay at your flat.  While in all practicality  I believe it would be easier and more comfortable if we stayed at the hotel that I have booked for us.

I know you want me to see your place.  And I would love to see your place, but you have not been there in months, and it will be dusty and impractical to clean everything just for a night.

But it is up to you.  I always look for the easiest, best way of doing things so that everything is a smooth flow.  Not so stressful running up and down and around.

It is up to you.

Acting Silly

Today you made me laugh like I had not done in a long long time.

So many firsts with you....... (Smile).......

You get away with so much with me.  No one else dares do the things you cheekily do to me.

I find that so endearing about you.  You are not afraid or intimidated to just be silly with me.

How you make me laugh!  You silly little sweetheart you.

Move

We moved your stuff into my bedroom today.

But you moved into my heart and life a long long time ago.

I hope you stay for a long long time till the my last breath.

I love you so.

When You Tell Me.......

When you talk heart to heart with me....... When you tell me how much you truly love me..... Everything...... EVERYTHING is worth it.

Us

How come we are so near yet so far apart?

I wonder if you are are having some misgivings about us.  I worry because I never ever want you to be unhappy.  Even if it means I have to be without you.

Then, when I least expect it, you grab me and kiss me.  You hold me close to you and look into my eyes.......

And all my misgivings and insecurities fly away for I can see in your eyes what you feel in your heart for me.

It is pure love.

Enough

Will love ever be enough for you?

Tumultuous

Yesterday, out of the blue, we had a confusing and confronting time.

You are sad because you are fighting your demons of addiction.  And as expected you will take your feelings out on me as I am the one closest to you.  

I accept that.  I am patient.  I will do anything to heal you.... your soul.

But I wonder if I will be enough???  Will my love be enough???  Will your love for me be strong enough to stand all these tribulations???

You have made me happier than I have ever been in all my life.  That is the truth.

Will I have to sacrifice my happiness if you should give in to your weaknesses?  

If my love for you is pure and true, I guess I would have to sacrifice me in order for you to be happy.

My heart is so heavy..... Why does life always have to play games with us?  Why all these cruel twist and turns?

Why can't true love just be enough?

Too Busy

Our days are getting busier and busier.  My busy season is almost upon us.

We seem to have less and less quality time together and our tempers flare as our patience fray.

I worry we will not make it.  I pray we do.  You are all I ever wanted.  I hope that you still believe that I am all that you have ever wanted too.

But for now, we seem a little far apart.

I miss you.  I miss us.

Days

How time flies when one is busy.

Busy with work.  Busy with getting on with life.  Getting too busy to pay much attention to each other.....Sad but true.

I must do something about this.  Perhaps a little break.....

You are getting grumpy with me.  And I feel bad because I know you are not use to my work schedule.  

All I have ever known is work ....work... and more work.....

I will make it all up to you.  I will make you laugh with me again.

I really love you.  I do.

Annoyed

You say it is a joke when you tease me about dating other people.

Maybe it is..... But I have been cheated on badly before.  And I really do not find that kind of teasing or joke funny.

I am annoyed.

When

When things get too tough for you...... Just remember.....When you are at rock bottom, the only other way is up.

So be patient.  Hold fast. Be humble. Be strong. Learn the lessons life is teaching you.

And never for a moment forget that I love you and I am here for you.